Something didn't feel quite right as Gemma slipped back into her
house
that
night, and she almost felt like something had happened to Abigail. She
was
hiding behind the couch as Gemma took off her shoes, and cowered under
a
blanket until Gemma spoke gently.
"What's wrong, Abby?"
She leapt up and hugged Gemma tightly. "Fucking Christ, Gemma! Josh has
been calling all day; he knows I'm here!"
Gemma's eyes narrowed. "Did you call the police?"
Shaking slightly, Abigail nodded. "I did, and they said they'd keep an
eye
out here for a while."
Her shoulders dropped in a relieved way. "Good then. You should
relax."
"No one's been by all day, Gemma. I think they said that to make me
feel
better." She whispered.
Gemma shook her head slowly. "This is your protection, they wouldn't
blow
you off."
Abby shook again. "I'm still scared."
Now Gemma felt guilty. "I'm going to be gone all day tomorrow; I want
you
to stay inside and keep the doors locked. I'll be back
around midnight. We'll have some fun okay? I promise."
The other woman nodded, and together the two set themselves
up and fell asleep in their separate rooms, almost at ease.
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For the simple sake of making his mother happy, Mike got dressed at
eight o'
clock for the family photo. He grumbled, but pulled on a sweater and
stood
behind his sister, forced a smile, and made sure he put up a
domestically happy
face. With enough egg nog he was sure the smile would
gain some reality to it, but the point of his entire existence at that
point
was to think of ways to either reunite Gemma with her family against
her will,
or beg his way back to her good side.
Cousins and uncles started showing up one by one throughout the night,
and by midnight, technically Christmas morning,
all fifteen or so of them were there, chatting, sleeping, eating,
talking. Mike was the main focal point because of his car
accident and his sister's huge mouth.
"He's got a girlfriend," she paused as the relatives clapped and
sought him out eagerly, his face slowly turning red, "finally! After
all
these years he decides to give it a shot and he's pissed her off
already!"
An uncle rounded on him instantly. "What did you do, boy?"
Mike let out an aggravated snarl and stood up, groping for the phone.
It went
deathly silent as he lifted the receiver and dialed her number
mechanically.
When it rang seven times, the family waited quietly, staring
as he stood, face in towards the wall, his face serious. There was a
light click, and in the silence they could all hear a scared voice come
over
the line, sheer terror and horror in her voice.
"Stop calling my house! Leave her alone!" There was a wail in the
background before a loud, resonant feedback sound and a clatter as the
receiver
clanked back to the cradle. Mike stared in horror at the receiver in
his hand,
mind already set. He started towards the door, pulling his car keys
from his
pocket as he did so, almost certain something was wrong that was beyond
his
control. Angela stopped him.
"Hey now, Mike, let's not get trigger-happy now. Call her in the
morning;
you can't go scaring her like that." The rest of the family nodded in
agreement. "You've been drinking anyway." She took his keys from him.
Mike groaned. "Drowning in my own gene pool, damnit!"
It was his father that broke the awkward silence. "They've been dating
for
three months!"
Once again the cooing and over-affection of his family surrounded him
and he
nearly had his cheeks pulled off by a horde of short aunts. They were
too short
to kiss him and too dignified to hug him around the middle so they sort
of
grappled for free space on his face while he scrambled away, face
horrified.
"Do you have a picture?" Asked one of his cousins, Ian.
He shook his head instantly, but Angela hauled out the drawing and
handed it to
Ian, smiling. "Best we've got, I'm afraid."
"Is this accurate?" Ian pressed Mike, eyeing the figure eagerly.
"Yeah, pretty close." He replied distractedly. "Be right
back,"
The solitude of the roof was welcomed eagerly as he sat there with a
cigarette
and another glass of egg nog. He felt sort of out of himself, bogged
down, depressed. He wished he could
apologize to Gemma now, he wished he could touch her again, see her
smile. It
was terrible to think that if his relationship with her survived this
bump,
he'd have to go a week without her. Sure, he'd find something to do,
but when
he went to bed at night, what was he supposed to do? Last night had
taken him
no less than half an hour to situate himself without
her there, and guilt drove him insane.
The window opened and Angela slid out carefully. "You alright,
Michael?"
He nodded slowly. "I guess. I just wish I could talk to her."
She smiled. "You like her, don't you?"
"Nope, I hate her guts but I'm going to date her for a few more months
just to waste my life." He retorted sarcastically.
Angela swatted him lightly before concluding, "It wouldn't hurt so bad
if you didn't like her."
"Who said I'm hurting?" He whined back, rubbing his face carefully.
She laughed. "Look in the mirror, little brother. You may pull off the
'I've been sleeping in my clothes' look but you still look like you
just lost
someone all over again."
"Well," he started, flicking his cigarette butt out onto the curb,
"you could argue that."
She smiled again. "What did you two do in Vermont for a week, huh
Mikey?" There
was her hand, obsessively smoothing his hair again.
"I dunno. Stuff."
"You know what I mean, Mike. Mum and Da are
already having a fit about the whole thing; you must know what they
think."
His eyes widened. "They really think I'd do that?"
"Depends; did you?"
"No!"
She smirked. "Why say it like that?"
He stared on with a gaping jaw. "Well, it's not that I wouldn't-hey hey
hey! Stop it!" He blushed deep red.
"I just wonder why you keep screeching about how you didn't do it."
She replied.
"Because all my friends back in London keep asking me if I've shagged
the
poor girl yet and I don't exactly plan on doing it any time soon." He
retorted bitterly.
Angela gasped. "You really haven't!"
He waved his arms around in a strange way. "No! I haven't! Christ,
Angie,
takes you a while to get something."
She grinned. "You love her,"
His breath caught instantly, his breath puffing out in the cold air
instantly
betraying him once again. He coughed but felt his heart go racing as he
started
to shrug and begin his excuse.
"I-I don't know, Angela-"
"Sure you do. You can't say it? Have you told her that you like her
even?" She leaned forward to catch his thoughtful glare.
He squirmed. "She knows,"
Angela clucked her tongue. "Pity you're too chicken to say it. They're
only words, right? You say them to her and suddenly you feel like
you're God
and she'll look at you the same way. Sometimes women will be funny like
that;
the only thing they want is affection."
"So, you're saying if I randomly show up, kiss her, and smile I'll be
forgiven?"
Angela stroked her chin. "I'd throw in a few hundred apologies, a hug,
and
a puppy. You're going to need it, so it sounds."
He smiled. "A puppy. She's got a feminist cat, so she'd probably need a
bitch." He paused. "As in the dog bitch."
"Of course," Angela replied with sparkling eyes.
Mike lit up again, sighing as the moon crept out from behind a cloud,
its
presence overbearing like a watchful parent, welcome and protective,
but
guilt-inducing and restraining. The liberation Mike usually felt in the
cold
air with the moon shining was replaced only by vacant and guilty
thoughts.
He was talking to himself before he realized he'd even begun. "Damn
women,
damn them all. They all grab you by the throat but we all keep going
back for
more, more more more more!
All we want is a woman, and if we can't find her we see ourselves as
meaningless, lifeless beings. What do I get stuck with? Emotionally
sensitive
and heartbroken. Honestly, I couldn't have picked anything harder. And
of
course, now that've I've started trying to solve her
I can't stop, I can't give up. I'm going to have to pour everything
I've got
into this, and it's already scaring me out of my wits. Why can't I just
say,
'Hey, I've got money, you kiss well, let's get married, what do you
say?'
Because, gasp! She might not agree and heaven knows if I embarrass
myself in
front of her I'm going to end up DEAD!" He took a huge breath, fingers
shaking as he held the cigarette between them. He took a long drag
before
continuing. "Self-induced suffering, I tell you. And I like it, damnit."
Angela laughed gently, raking her fingernails across Mike's back,
making him
arch backward with sudden relief and mild embarrassment. "You're funny,
Mikey. It's not that hard."
"You explain it then!" He replied, flicking another cigarette butt of
the roof lazily.
She smiled. "I'll tell you what women think of love, then. We all sit
around, dreaming about our weddings from the day we ask our mothers
about it.
Every little girl in the world with a mother or mother-figure asks her
at some
point what being married is. Their mothers then weave this magical tale
about
always having this wonderful light and warm feeling in their stomachs,
and they
always feel happy and exuberant around the guy they love. The guy never
seems
to mind that his friends tease him for being sweet, and the man never
seems to
be too pushy. All women get this image of their father in another man's
body,
strong and protective, always there for her. As we grow older we add
all these
impossible necessities onto our perfect man. Suddenly they have to be
able to
make a lot of money, be very cute, know how to please her but still be
happy
with just her, and never be a man at all. It isn't until they actually
meet
their guy they seem to understand that their husband should be allowed
to watch
rugby tournaments with his mates, drink at dinner, be out late, and
occasionally be selfish as only humans can be. Flaws are flaws, and to
not have
them would make you perfect, which to the human world is flawed." She
smiled again and patted Mike's back as he mulled things over.
"You really went out there looking for Da in
another guy's body?" He wrinkled his nose.
Angela laughed. "Not really, but you need someone you feel is
protective,
and why not someone you know has always been there for you? If you
don't have a
father, it'll be the man figure in your life. Like Sara, her uncle was
always
there and she married Toby-he is like her uncle's long-lost son. Most
of the
time a woman's father-figure will get along just great with her
husband."
Mike sighed. "Too bad Gemma won't talk to her parents."
"What did she do?" His sister asked, puzzled.
Sighing heavily, Mike let his head drop to his chest lazily. "She broke
some severe rules by choice and was kicked out of her house, money for
college
and a duffel bag of clothes. She had to get by with what she had and
who she
had, her family exiling her from her family. For whatever reason, she
is convince they still wish not to know she exists."
"Who she had? Who did she have?"
"Her boyfriend, later her fiancé. He died two months before they
were
going to get married, and she lost hope that she'd be able to show her
family
she made a decision she was confident in and not just, I dunno,
letting someone else make. She gets so upset talking about it,
insisting she
was stupid, but she knew what she was doing. For some reason we both
take
comfort in the fact she intended on marrying the guy before she let him
have
his way with her." He replied evenly, knowing Angela would read between
the lines easily enough.
She nodded slowly. "Do you think she trusts you?"
"I'd like to think so."
"That wasn't my question, little brother."
He sighed again. "I don't know. We don't have secrets to keep. When
things
come up we tell each other easily enough."
Angela smiled knowingly. "Do you trust her?"
He shrugged. "I guess,"
She sighed, frustrated. "Michael, you need to really think these things
through. If you can't tell if you trust her, you might be wasting your
time
worrying if she'll take you back!"
He rounded on her, face mad just like she expected. "Why wouldn't I
trust
her, Angie?"
Angela shrugged, waiting for what she knew would come.
It was always the same with Mike, he never admitted anything with
questions,
but given a few minutes alone after the interrogation, he
spilled every detail. It was just like when he sat on the edge of his
bed at
the beach, staring at his shoes when he discovered Helen wasn't coming
down. He
looked so heart-broken and scared; she felt a pang of sadness stir
inside her
as he stared in much the same way. She reached out and thumped him once
on the
chest near his heart.
"You hurting?"
Slowly he nodded. "Yeah, a bit."
She nodded, suppressing a smile just barely.
"As I've told her once before, I feel about eight years old around her,
which at first I didn't feel like it was normal, or right, but it
became what I
knew around her. We always goofed around and had fun, and I never
minded that
we never did anything too intimate. Out of all the times I've been left
alone
with her, or been alone with her, there are only a few instances I can
pick out
where I felt like I was twenty-six, I was anxious, and she was there.
There are
only a few times I can think of where I felt like if she moved one more
time I
wouldn't be able to hold back for very long, or at all. She always
seemed to
stop moving then, and I couldn't help but feel disappointed, or
relieved. She
made me feel like I was walking around in mid-air, and it seemed like I
did
nothing in return. Recently though, she smiles at me and I feel so
strange,
like she's just looking at me for the sake of looking, and she can't
help but
get up and kiss me when I catch her staring. It's only then when I can
look past
the look in her eye like she's about to slip off into another world and
start
crying. And that makes me want to hold her close and I know it sounds
stupid,
but I want to cry for her so she won't ever have to cry again. Then
Eric flips
the lights on and off and I feel eight, and she's untouchable again.
It's hell and I put myself through it willingly." His
speeches always seemed well thought-out, but this was spur
of the moment, pauses inserted as he shook his head, voice skipping
around, his
chin down in a sort of shamed way. His voice was soft as he spoke about
how she
made him feel, and the way she acted around him, but from what Angela
gathered,
she couldn't help but hug him and smile happily.
She couldn't stop grinning. "Has she told you how you make her feel?"
He shook his head, sighing unhappily. "Hell, I tell you."
Gemma sat up on her own roof with Abigail, her tears private as she
held her
friends shoulders while they wept together. Why it had come to her so
quickly,
the sadness and the tears, she didn't know. She couldn't help but let
her
shoulders shake, her fear and sorrow so high she felt like she was
drowning in
herself. She wanted to feel safe again, and the only place she could
think of
was Mike's arms and he was so very far away, and she was supposed to be
mad at
him for something stupid. Abby was mumbling under her breath, something
about
Josh seeing them on the roof, and Gemma hushed her fears, feeling weak
and
tired, her shoulders tense as they shook. The blanket around their
shoulders was
frail and thin, shivers seeping into Gemma slowly. Her hope was rising
up again
though, like the last struggling rays of sunshine trying to sneak
through the
clouds before a storm. She kept hoping that any second now the sun
would rise
and she would be able to ignore her sorrows again. Night always brought
the
same fear to her when she had all the time in the world to think and
nothing
more.
"You're so lucky," Abby sobbed, "to find a guy like Mike."
Gemma nodded. "But I'm also very stupid for letting him go over my own
ignorance, if I may say so."
Abby smiled very weakly. "He'll come back; I've heard the
you talk about him, and the way he talks about you."
"Your turn will come, Abby. It always does." Gemma wiped her face
slowly.
Somewhere in Bloomington, Summer
and Stanley Thompson sat down together in the drawing room of their
tiny home,
the only one of their ten children still living with them living at
college
most of the time. Little Sarah, their littlest girl, was sleeping in
the
armchair gently. Just looking at the beautiful young girl made Summer
think of her other daughter, Gemma. The girl they had
forced from their home because of her silly decision. In hind-sight, as
parents, they could not show her they would let her back in very easily
after her
stupidity, but when they did seek her out, privately, she had all but
disappeared. She didn't live on campus, was unlisted, and never seemed
to
acknowledge the fact they were asking around for her. For a while they
would
not let their children speak her name, but then the kids stopped by
themselves,
and even now if they said her name, they cast wary glances as their
parents as
if they would be reprimanded. In reality, their ears all tuned sharper
at any
word of Gemma, and yet they couldn't bring themselves to ask if any of
their
children had encountered her since they had left the house for their
own
journeys. Doug walked in, gently picking up his twenty-year-old sister
before
carrying her to her room and placing her on the lower part of a bunk
bed, the top
half empty. He glanced at the picture of Gemma, her prom photo,
standing with
Scott, his littlest brother, at her side. They looked so happy, and now
he
remembered her profile, what he'd squinted of her outside the hospital
when the
taller man had taken her arm and pinched her side, a happy laughter
escaping
her lips. She looked and sounded happy, and the man with her seemed
nice
enough; Doug was pleased enough.
He walked back into the drawing room in time to hear his father's voice
drift
off. "We can't just ring her up, Summer. I wish
we knew something, but the truth is we made the bigger mistake sending
her
off."
Doug folded his arms. "I saw Gemma a few weeks ago,"
Summer jumped and turned, her graying hair bobbing
around her shoulders in a frail way. "What?"
He nodded. "I couldn't stand it anymore; Noah still talks to her. It
seems
the rule you passed never applied to him. He talks to her regularly and
checks
up on her."
His father took his son's arm and shook it roughly. "What's happened to
her? Is she alright?"
"She's fine, happy. You're right about making the bigger mistake. Noah
says she cries near every night, asking herself why she was so
ignorant. Jonas
died, you know. He's dead, and she was going to marry him." He sounded
rather bitter.
"Well, what's she doing? What's happened to her?!" His mother sounded
desperate.
Doug shook his head. "She's a paramedic, and that's all she'd tell me.
She
sounds wonderful, healthy, fine. And she's got a great
guy watching after her."
With that he hugged his mother and walked off into the dark corridor
while his
mother sobbed, shrieking a few things at her husband before Doug's
hearing
failed him and his door closed.
"What rule? Do they think we wanted them to never speak to her
again?!" Summer shrieked.
Stanley shook his head. "Summer, we
must fix this. It's been too long!"
Mike sighed heavily, slipping inside with an eager arm to Angela, who
slipped
in, tired eyes and all. They crept off to sleep, and seemed to be
perfectly
content for a while.
Gemma carried Abigail to the couch, slipping her off there, checking
her doors
to make sure they were locked, along with the doors. Piling extra
blankets on
Abby's slim form, she crawled into her own freezing cold bed and fell
into a
wet, cold, unforgiving sleep.
Summer
and Stanley Thompson wallowed in their own guilt for what seemed like
ages,
falling asleep at last, hearts going out to their daughter wherever she
was.
They had all their thoughts evenly spreading out, their hopes rising up
like a
smile through tears; weak but optimistic. Tomorrow they would talk to
their
children, enlist their help, and find Gemma. Tomorrow was a day to be
reckoned
with.
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"I'll
be back at eleven o' clock for lunch break, and then I'm off again
until six,
back again at midnight. Sound alright?" Gemma asked, pulling plain
black gloves onto her cold hands. Abby nodded
nervously, tugging her jacket on tighter. Smiling gently, giving Abby a
quick
hug before slipping out the door and into her car, stopping at the end
of the second
block to see Mrs. Guffry, Mike's landlady, walking
Boxer, the enormous black lab. She yanked hard on the leash, her
slippers
scraping along the pavement pitifully as the beast yanked her along
like a rag doll.
Gemma turned her face away from the amusing scene and focused on
getting to
work.
Mike
awoke to a loud shout, and as he walked down into the living area, he
noticed
the Christmas tree was littered with a great number of gifts, the
stockings
hanging on the fireplace mantle filled to the brim. Seeing his own
lumpy sock
he tried to calculate how many pairs of socks and boxers he'd gotten
from his
mother, and if Angela had gone and bought him anything worthwhile. He
had
looked high and low for her, finally deciding that the camera she had
scrimped
for since she was eight years old, and hadn't bought after all, was the
perfect
thing. Taking his enormous bag of unwrapped things, he distributed the
things evenly, making sure his nephew received enough candy for a
lifetime. He sat down then, ignoring shouts for him to open things,
insisting
he didn't mind going last as the other people happily tore at the paper
around
the gifts, laughing, smiling, cheering as the contents spilled onto
their
waiting laps. When he could put it off no longer, Mike pulled his
stocking off the
mantle and dumped the socks and underclothes onto his lap, grinning
stupidly as
he pulled on several pairs of socks, on hands and feet alike, donning a
pair of
checkered boxers on his head (much to the amusement of tiny Charlie).
As
always, he was pleased with what he gave and got, but there was
something
missing. He wanted to see Gemma, and as much as he wanted to tell
himself to
shut up and enjoy what he had, he pined for her. She must miss him in
some
respect, as mad as she was at him. It appeared she had all the time in
the
world to stay apart from him, but she waited. It was Christmas Day; he
must
have some time to sneak away for a few hours to beg for her
forgiveness, if
only he could find a puppy today...
Cousins
and Aunts alike were smiling, laughing, cooking, eating, drinking, some
even crawling back off to sleep. Michael was struck
with the sudden urge to go get dressed, which he did slowly, unaware
that his mother
was standing outside his door, a sad face plastered on her usually
ever-smiling
face.
When he
yanked the door open and she threw her arms around him, he was
surprised and
alarmed, but aware that all she wanted was to be hugged in return. He
made sure
she was happy when he pulled away, crouching to her height, hoping to
see some
reason on her face.
She
laughed gently. "Be grateful for what you've got, Michael. You've got
this
girl we all want to meet and you're already in a row. God knows I love
my son,
boy, but why not be happy?"
He
sighed and smiled. "I'm trying, Mum, but you know
me. I tend to brood when I'm deprived of the womens..."
She
swatted him playfully, taking his arm insistently. It was just past
eleven when
he entered the living area again, and time seemed to stop as the phone
entered
his vision.
Gemma
walked into her house, slamming the door gently. She neglected to lock
the door
as she walked into the kitchen to make some tea, and when the door
opened and
closed by itself, she didn't think anything of it, that is until she
felt an
arm creep around her neck and she couldn't breathe.
It was
just before eleven when Josh sneaked into the house and held Gemma's
throat
tightly with his arm, backing down the stairs with her feet dragging on
the
carpeting. When he caught sight of Abby he tossed Gemma at her, and the
two
screamed like hell, running from room to room as he trudged after them
menacingly.
"Come
out!" He shouted, kicking the wall heavily. Gemma mentally cursed
herself
for not having a phone in her basement. She tried to hide behind the
piano, but
Josh grabbed a handful of her hair, and flicking a knife open, cut a
shallow
slice on her shoulder, cutting the sleeve of her uniform off. Abby
cried and
darted from couch to recliner quickly, screaming for him to stop.
"Josh!
I swear I didn't do anything! Please don't hurt me! Don't hurt Gemma!"
She
went limp as he neared her, picking her up by her cast. He grabbed her
collar
bone and yanked her hard, a sickening crack whipping into the air.
Gemma
retched, her knees weak as her feet flew towards the stairs. She was
shoved
against the wall and before her head smacked the concrete wall, she
heard a
loud wail and her door was thrown open. Police men started to flood
into the
room, but not before the five inch blade sunk into Gemma's chest just
below her
left breast. She gasped as a shot rang out, tearing Josh from her
front,
leaving her to sink to the floor. Ximena jumped into
view, her face full of tears.
She
patted Gemma's face weakly as she and Abby were loaded into the same
ambulance.
"No, chica, you gonna
be alright! You gotta pull through, come on, chica! Oye me! Rapido!"
She smacked at the wall of the ambulance, her
partner speeding up considerably. Gemma's side was drenched with her
own blood,
a fiery heat enveloping her side. Her breathing was shallow, and her
self-diagnosis didn't bode well. She felt that if she didn't get into
surgery
soon she was either going to bleed to death or die of
oxygen-deprivation. She
hitched for breath, trying to get her words out quickly before she fell
into
unconsciousness, possibly for the
rest of her life.
"Hey,
Ximena. Where's my boyfriend?" She heard herself
ask. Stupid question, she knew where he was, but the blood loss had
changed her
mind temporarily.
Ximena wiped away her own tears. "You said he's at his
parents'."
Gemma
smiled as colors drifted into her vision. "I love him, you know? I love
him. I'm sorry I didn't listen...I love him." She took Ximena's
arm, her eyes crossing and uncrossing a few times. "Tell him that. Tell
him
I'm sorry and I love him. Please," she put her head back as Ximena
sobbed in helplessness, trying to hold the bleeding
down until they screeched to a stop outside the hospital. By then,
Gemma was
clinically dead, and if the on duty doctor couldn't patch her up in
time, she
was as good as dead.
It was
just past eleven when Mike stared with a pit of overwhelming despair in
his
stomach. The phone rang as he stared at it, and when he shoved Thom out
of the
way to pick it up, they knew something was wrong; everyone was silent.
"Hello?"
He asked, his breath whistling weakly.
There
was a slight pause before a sniff and a woman with a Spanish accent
began
speaking. "Mr. Palin? Mr. Michael Palin?"
He nodded,
gulping. "Yes?"
There
was a small sob before, "It's Gemma, she's in a
bad way, sir. She wanted me to call you, before they took her into
surgery-"
"What
happened?" He interrupted, his voice shaking.
Angela
gasped at his tone of voice, her hands leaping up to her mouth
instantly.
Ximena choked out another sob but continued. "She was
housing a friend of hers, and the boyfriend showed up and stuck a knife
in her
ribs-"
"Oh,
fuck no-"
"She
lost a lot of blood, and her lung was punctured. The problem is mainly
with the
lack of good surgeons around Christmas. She wanted me to call you, she
wouldn't
let me go until I promised, and she wanted me to tell you something."
She
paused, as if waiting for reassurance.
"Yeah?"
He whispered, feeling his throat choke up instantly.
"She
wanted you to know she loves you. She also said she was sorry, and that
she
loves you." Her voice was soft and awe-filled.
He
nodded, his face betraying him again as it twisted into a horrible
emotion-bottling
machine. He wouldn't cry, no, she'd be fine. He had to lie to himself
to stay
sane. "Thank you,"
"Are
you coming?" She asked.
He
nodded again. "Yes,"
"You'll
have a pass at the front desk, just stop there, I'll be on the open
floor-"
"Thank
you, thank you!" Mike couldn't help but cut her off before she said
anything out how surgery went, if Gemma's outlook was doubtful or not,
or
anything else. He turned and stared angrily at the wall while he fought
a good
long scream, turning with a sudden shout.
"Where
are you going?" Angela choked out, knowing something was terribly
wrong.
Mike
looked up, rubbing his face as he pulled on his shoes. "She's dying,
she
loves me, I have to go-"
"Dying?"
Thom yelped.
Turning
his face down as a single tear dropped from his face, Mike nodded.
"Some
bastard stabbed her."
Angela
yanked on a jacket and slipped her shoes on, taking Mike's arm. "I'm
coming with you."
He
nodded before they sprinted to Mike's car, slipping inside, tearing
over lawns
to get to the road without moving other cars. Mike behind the wheel and
little
or no police on the road, they tore down the pavement, Mike's jaw tight
in
determination, Angela openly fretting as she heard a news report come
on the
radio about a man wanted for assault and battery was apprehended.
"Joshua
Tallero was finally caught today. He was wanted for
assault and battery of his girlfriend, who was taking refuge in her
friend's house.
Unfortunately for the girl, Tallero found her and her
friend. Tallero was shot and is in stable condition,
his ex-girlfriend left up in the ward over with a broken collar-bone,
and her
friend in critical condition with a stab wound in her abdomen. His
trial begins
next November..."
Angela
coughed as she turned off the radio. "She'll probably be fine-"
"She'd
be fine if they had a full staff, probably, but it's
Christmas, Angela." Mike snapped, speeding up. Instead of the usual
hour
and a half, it took just over an hour to reach London, and another ten
in town with the
police crawling around looking for holiday partyers
driving around drunk, to reach the hospital. Barely in the yellow lines
in the
car park, Angela and Mike abandoned the car and sprinted inside, Mike
grabbing
a special card to let him in the surgery unit. He sped to the third
floor where
Ximena was sitting just outside the double doors, her
face knit up harshly. She leapt up and hugged Mike, who impatiently
embraced the
woman he hardly knew, knowing only he gave her a sense of comfort.
The
clouded surgery doors were filled with a slow and steady beeping; she
was
alive, but for how long? Ximena insisted he follow
her to take his mind off the impending doom. She tugged him into the
case-file
room where a tape player was set up, a reel set up.
"I
thought it was best you hear her yourself," she explained, also adding
that every ambulance was equipped with a small recording device so
lawsuits
could be proved or discounted with evidence of what went on inside the
ambulance on the way to the hospital.
The
crackly sound began to play, Mike floating out of his body again,
staring at
his own expressionless face as Ximena's voice played
over.
"Rapido!" She barked and there was a loud thud before
Gemma's soft and pain-filled voice intervened.
She
hitched a breath, so clear over the crackly recording. "Hey, Ximena,
where's my boyfriend?" She asked, her voice dreamy and higher pitched
than normal. "I
love him, you know? I love him. I'm sorry I didn't listen...I love
him.. Tell him that. Tell him I'm sorry and I love him. Please,"
there was a sob on Ximena's part and a spatter of
tears and blood before the recording stopped.
Mike
felt Angela's arms on his shoulders, and he could hardly feel his toes.
He was
aware he was standing there, but he was also aware that he had avoided
telling
the woman he loved the truth this entire time in fear he would lose
like he
could. He couldn't decide at first, which was worse; losing her without
her
knowing he loved her more than anyone he could possibly love, or
telling her
and seeing the mirrored affection only to lose her. Angela's arms shook
his
lightly, her hands comforting as they smoothed his hair.
"I
love her," he said plainly.
There
was a loud bang, and Gemma's gurney wheeled past, the surgeon, elbows
to
fingertips dripping in blood. He cursed loudly, stripping his bloodied
gloves
to rub his face with a exasperated screech.
"FUCK!"
He cried, kicking a trash bin. Ximena grabbed his
arms, asking him calmly what had happened.
With a
deep breath, the doctor replied. "She has a mild allergy to the
painkiller,"
Mike stared on in horror as he continued, "and since we had to use so
much, there's a very big chance she won't wake up. If she doesn't wake
up in
twenty-four hours, she won't ever again." With that he backed into the
empty surgeon's ward, cursing again.
Mike
swooned terribly, his feet dragging as Angela forced him into Gemma's
room
where she was laid up with every on-duty nurse, paramedic, doctor, and
orderly
stood, their faces somber as she slept on, the too-slow bleeping of her
heart
unnerving. The pale blue gown on her body, hanging so loosely,
collected a
small pool of blood at her side, where the knife must have entered. The
stitches were loose for swelling, though her side had not swelled. The
problem
was her body was just as asleep as her mind, and Mike felt a fear well
up
inside him.
Brad Jameison gently put his hand on Mike's shoulder, his face
sad and understanding. "I'm glad you're here."
Gemma's
head lolled weakly, trying to wake up. Deciding this was normal, Mike
took a
seat next to her, forcing her fingers to cling to his hand like he knew
they
would if she were awake. Ximena kissed her forehead
before they walked out to their posts. Angela looked at her baby
brother with a
tremendous sadness in her heart, staring at the poor man hunch over the
woman.
It was
hard for her to think he loved the girl, after all,
she had only just met her, but seeing the way he kissed her hand,
stroked her cheek, and talked under his breath to the sleeping girl,
she
knew he did. What he said was not what Angela knew he wanted to say.
"You've
got to wake up, Gem. You think one week is a long time to leave me
alone
without you, I couldn't go the rest of my life. You're
stronger than a damn allergy anyway." He muttered, kissing her hand
again.
Angela
stared at Gemma's lips, pouting all the time, the sadness Mike had
described
present. Her head lolled again, and yet she was weak and it was only a
spasm.
Angela smoothed Mike's hair once before giving him a weak look.
Sliding
closer, Mike kissed her cheek, sliding over to her lips, scared to
realize she
couldn't even push back. He laced his fingers into hers, hardly caring
if he said something that anyone would laugh at. It
was
his life, not a stupid soap opera.
"You're
the best thing that's ever happened to me, Gemma. Wake up..." He paused
nervously, his voice cracking again. Angela smiled encouragingly at him
before
he finally choked out what she had hardly been able to say without her
life on
the line. "I love you,"
Her eyes
fluttered open, just a tease before her breathing slowed down more. The
beeping
heart monitor slowed as well, which frightened Mike immensely. He
whispered the
three-word phrase over and over again, kissing her cheek, her hand, and
gripping her other hand tightly with fear and sorrow on his face. He
lamented
all the time he could have been saying what he was now. She always said
that
there wasn't a God, that your own will and body decide whether or not
you live,
and no one can decide but you. He knew she must be able to hear him in
some
respect; he began to talk more openly, not paying any mind to his
parents, who
were standing behind Angela with small, horrified looks on their faces.
"You
know I love you, and I couldn't say it. We couldn't say it at all, and
now here
we are, never to know the other even said it. I promise you that if you
wake up
I'll say it to you every night, every morning, every chance I get. I
promise to
love you every second, but I need you here for me. Greedy as it sounds
I do
need you here for me." He couldn't stop talking, comfort in the sound
of
his own voice.
Her
breathing stopped, a loud alarm sounding. Mike jumped,
letting out a heart-broken sob, kicking over his chair. Nurses and
doctors
rushed in, taking a small plastic device that resembled a set of
bagpipes, hooking
it to her face, pumping it wildly to rush air into her lungs. Her heart
was
pounding frantically, and yet she couldn't breathe. After the emergency
passed,
the doctor hooked her to a respirator, one that was strapped to her
face and
forced a huge breath of oxygen into every few seconds, her own chest
falling
with gravity.
Throughout
the day Mike sat by her side, gripping her hand while Angela fetched
him water
and food, knowing it was agony for him to think that come tomorrow at
eleven if
she hadn't recovered, they would have to unplug her, let her die, and
he'd lose
another woman he loved. It wasn't fair.
"Go
on, go call Terry and tell him. Go walk around, use the bathroom, do
something.
You'll only depress yourself staring at her like this." Angela told
him,
taking his hand. "I'll watch her and if anything happens I'll call you
right back here, I promise."
Mike
nodded and stalked off, busying himself slowly. His first thought
hadn't been call Terry, but call her parents. Call Gemma's parents. He
looked
up Noah's number and dialed quickly, pumping coins into the payphone.
"'Lo?"
Noah croaked.
Mike
sighed. "Hello Noah, this is Mike-"
"What's
wrong with Gemma?" His voice immediately sounded scared.
"She-I,
she's been stabbed, Noah. They aren't sure she's going to make it." He
managed to say it, making it all the more clearer to himself that she
could
have slipped away while he was there, talking to him.
"Oh,
God-"
"Call
her parents, Noah. Now or never." He begged.
Noah
nodded. "I'll do it, and then I'm coming in."
Mike
nodded now. "If she doesn't wake up by tomorrow eleven
thirty, she
isn't going to wake up. Make sure you impress these people you're
calling with
that."
Noah
sobbed gently, trying to cover the noise. "Thanks, Mike-"
"I'll
take care of her,"
"I
know you will."
They
hung up without another word, and Mike could feel the strangeness in
the air.
He could smell the fear in his own body and it only succeeded in
scaring him
more.
While
Mike hurried back to Gemma's side, Noah dialed a number he never
thought he'd
see again.
It rang
seven times before an irritated voice picked up.
"Heylo?" It was Sam.
"Sam!
God, put your mother or father on the phone, now, damnit!"
Noah cried.
Sam
looked confused. "Noah? Is that you?"
"No
questions!" Noah shrieked.
Sam
scowled but handed the receiver to his mother, who looked politely
puzzled as
she lifted to her ear. "Yes?"
Noah
sniffed heavily. "Aunt Summer, this is Noah, your nephew-"
"Oh!
How have you been?"
"It
doesn't matter, Auntie, I have some news about your daughter Gemma-"
She
gasped. "What do you know, Noah? You must tell me what's happened to
Gemma!"
Stanley hunched over the receiver, and
suddenly all nine of the kids and two parents were crouched over the
receiver
as Noah's shaking voice spilled over the line like a gurgling
waterfall.
"She's
in the hospital and they don't think she's going to make it!"
There
was a horrible cry up among them before they proclaimed they'd be there
in no
more than forty-five minutes. With some apprehension, they scrambled
among themselves
for car keys, jackets, coats, and Scott, Gemma's closest in age
brother,
grabbed a camera. It seemed unsaid among them that they had no idea
what she
looked like, what she did for a living, how she had turned out, and if
she
would forgive them for being too afraid to find her.
The
horrible silence in the room Gemma slept in filled Mike's mind, and
before he
knew it, he was sobbing over her body again, hardly
caring that Noah was there, his mother and father, his sister, and a
doctor. He
only knew that if he lost another girl like Gemma he'd never be able to
live; a
hollow man and an unhappy man. All he knew to be right and just was
gone and he
was left to pick up the pieces of his life as she lay
there, her face showing that horrible sadness he hated so much. Just
having her
close was good after all the fear she hated him, and yet she said she
loved
him.
"We'll
be all right, Noah assured Mike as he managed to get himself together
again,
his face red but his tears dried. As much as it peeved him he could be
brought
to tears over her, he knew he had good reason; he loved her.
Mike
stared seriously at Noah. "You may be able to walk away from this with
a
loss on your shoulders, but I'm going to walk out of here with so many
I won't
be able to walk at all. I fell in love with this woman, and if she dies
on me
now I'm not going to be able to live myself."
Noah
smiled weakly. "Gemma always wanted a guy like you, Mike. If she lives
through this, you two are going to be the happiest couple in the entire
world."
"Damn
straight," he said softly, gazing once again at Gemma's sad face.
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