“What the HELL was that?” shouted the voice,
and Chelsea felt herself begin to get ratty again.
This was not what she wanted. To be stuck up a mountain in a flimsy
white
dress, in the wet, foggy, muddy infestation that was Python a La
Scotland was
not her ideal holiday, and as Terry Jones barked orders at her she felt
her
usually long tether begin to fray and snap.
“I said I wanted virginal. Not silly
schoolgirl! Now do it again.”
She scowled at him as he called action and
she performed her lines again, with what she thought was accurately
what they
required. She smiled gaily as Michael fell into the castle looking
slightly
erotic in his wet and muddied costume, his wet wavy hair framing his
face and
his dimples creeping slightly into his cheeks when he looked up at her.
She
delivered her lines and threw her hands about gesticulatory and smiled
widely
as Michael delivered his.
“Bollocks.” Terry said and walked onto the
set. “What is this? Pantomime? Can someone please
direct me to a place where real actors live?”
Chelsea put her hands on her hips and plugged her
anger, but felt that any moment she would combust.
Michael looked even worse than she did and
was worse off because of the dreadful state of his costume. The
camaraderie
that had accompanied the initial filming of the Holy Grail had slowly
dissipated as the Pythons realised that not only was location abysmal,
but
there was also a lack of hot water and heating in their hotels, food
was sparse
and tasted of mulch and there was just about as much living space as
there was
breathing space, which meant that ultimately everyone was living in
each others
pockets, so much so that instead of Michael sharing a room with
Chelsea,
cunningly devised by himself with the innocent aid of Terry, he was
also sharing
it with a member of lighting and a rather drunken and disorderly
gentlemen
belonging to the art department.
And not only that but the
money was getting tight. They had already been filming for six weeks
and
it seemed that they would have to wind it up within the next two, and
with so
many re-writes and faulty equipment, crashes, explosions and general
fighting
going on within the ranks, it was hard to envisage an end to it at all.
And so
slowly the atmosphere of new adventure had waned, and each Python,
although
enjoying the new experience, often in hindsight, was wondering again
why they
had reformed to do something such as this.
“Terry I really think you should calm down,”
said a voice from the wings and Chelsea noticed that Alison had come
from the
hotel again, and was looking uncomfortable in her heavily pregnant
position.
She was at least 7 months gone now, and it always amazed Chelsea at how
much larger she had become since
she had first announced it.
Again a strange feeling ran over her as she
looked on at her friend. Why wasn’t she getting pregnant and having
children
with the man she loved, and she cast a glance at Michael, who looked
wearily up
at her. Because he was married to Python, and there wasn’t a lot she
could do
about that.
Terry glanced at his wife and looked
pointedly at her. “Do I interfere with your micro biology?” he asked
cuttingly
and she steadied her gaze at him. It was mystifying how much Alison’s
presence
had an effect on Terry, and she was certainly the only one who could
win an
argument with him. Everyone else was lucky if they got a draw, but
Alison was
just as stubborn and determined as her husband, and could get under his
skin
like no one else, not even Michael.
He sucked in a large breath and smiled
sickeningly at his actors. “Please try that again.” He said and they
began
rolling again.
But again Terry shouted a halt, at which
point Chelsea pulled off her Zoot hat and stuffed it into his arms. It
was the
last scene involving her in the movie anyway, and she wasn’t being
shouted at
for anyone’s money.
“Where are you going?” Terry asked, slightly
in awe of her sudden reaction.
She turned around. “Away
from you Terry. You’ll just have to use another take because I am NOT
doing this scene again and being balled at by you. I’m going back to
the hotel
and I’m leaving.”
Terry’s mouth dropped open and Michael
scrambled to his feet.
“Come back Chelsea, I’m sorry!” Terry called, but she
continued walking and Michael ran quickly after her and stopped her
just as she
was about to push the door into the castle foreyard.
“What are you doing?” he asked incredulously.
“What does it look like Michael?” she asked
sarcastically.
He flinched slightly and glanced over the top
of her head before pushing her out into the dark night outside. It was
a rarely
dry night and you could see the stars in the sky, but Chelsea didn’t
care. She wanted to be out of
there as soon as possible. She didn’t think she could stand one moment
more in
the presence of Terry, especially in the mood he was in.
And as she watched Michael check all around
them for anyone listening in she felt her heart break. There really was
only so
much one woman could take, and being chosen over a career more than
once was
devastating her. Chelsea had argued so much that she could handle it;
she had
said she was ok, but really, the night that they had decided to enter
into the
film had been it for her. She loved Michael with all of her heart, and
she
really thought she would do anything for him. But it seemed that she
was giving
everything, and receiving nothing. It was all Michael’s way, for
Michael, to
make Michael happy. And it wasn’t his fault, by no means, and if it was
to be
argued she would freely submit that it was her own fault for backing
down. But
this was the last straw. She loved Python, but she would never have put
it over
her own relationship.
And he couldn’t see it. He looked around them
again and then put his hands on her shoulders.
“You can’t leave Chelsea. Terry’s just being an arse, he’ll be ok
later. You know how he is, all power mad and senseless.”
She stepped back from his hands, pushing
aside the need for him to hold her which had over taken her senses.
“I don’t care about Terry. He’s just the
icing on the cake as they say.”
Michael looked puzzled. “I don’t understand
what you’re trying to say.”
She shook her head. “Michael
what about us?”
He looked around again and motioned for her
to be quiet. She felt anger well within herself then and she clenched
her hands
in fists at her sides.
“I will NOT be quiet about this for the rest
of my life Michael. I’m sick of having to be quiet about it. I’m sick
of always
coming second and being the secret you don’t want anyone to know about.
I’m
tired of being the extra part that fits in your life when you want it.
I don’t
want to be here. I want to go home.”
Michael looked at her seriously. “I thought
you wanted to come here.” He said steadily.
Chelsea leant against the castle wall. “I only
said I wanted to come because I knew if I didn’t you would feel torn
between
Python and me. And I’m right aren’t I? No matter how much you say you
love me
and will always be there for me, Python will always rule over us.”
Michael shook his head. “That isn’t true.” He
said and tried to hold her hand, but she removed it quickly.
“If that isn’t so then why didn’t you tell
them at the meal that you wanted to marry me. That
we’d been seeing each other for nearly 5 years and that you loved me
entirely?”
She shook her head as his face became dumbfounded.
“I…”
She shook her head. “As long as Python is in
your life Michael I will always be second, and I can’t deal with that
anymore.
I’m either a part of your life with Python, or I’m not in it at all.”
Michael looked at her and didn’t know what to
say. His mouth opened and closed and he looked around and then back at
her, and
then up again.
She studied him with eyes that already knew
the answer to her questions. He would never jeopardise Python, because
he was
truly a Python member. He would abide by a rule they had set in the
beginning,
and deny himself his, and her, own happiness, and live in secret if he
had to
to stop Python from being hurt.
“I love you Chelsea.” He said at last and tried to hug her,
but she stepped backwards again, and then promptly walked away, knowing
that
she had just left her heart in two broken pieces outside of the castle
gates.
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“Well is she coming back?” Terry asked
brusquely as Michael returned.
His friend looked up at him and shook his
head. No words wanted to come out of his mouth, and Michael thought if
he’d
tried to speak he might just burst into tears. Suddenly he didn’t want
to be
here either, but he was unsure of where to go.
Terry threw his arms up in the air. “Good job
we got one decent take of that scene then, otherwise we’d be screwed.”
He said
and motioned for everyone to pack away.
Michael stood next to his friend and wanted
to punch him. The love of his life had just walked out of his life,
possibly
for forever, and all Terry cared about was the damn reel.
“Are you ok Mike? You look kind of strange.”
Alison asked as she touched Michael’s arm.
Michael nodded weakly but still didn’t say a
word. There were in fact no words to describe it. At the moment the
only
feeling he had was in the pit of his stomach, and he felt sick with
sadness.
His brain wasn’t functioning properly. Why
had he let her leave? If he loved her so much why had he let her go?
Why did
Python mean so much to him when he might not have made it anyway
without her?
Finally back at the hotel he slipped into his
room to find that his roommates had gone out for the evening, and he
realised
with a sudden pang of sorrow that she had taken all of her stuff and
had left
too. He touched the pillow she had lain on the night before and picked
it up,
lifting it to his nose and smelling her perfume. He felt his stomach
lurch and
suddenly he was sobbing, his pain gushing out through the every pore in
his
body. He threw himself onto the bed and cried, not caring that he was
making
his mattress dirty with mud from his costume or that he was making it
damp
because of the wetness soaked into the cloth. Instead he felt that his
heart was
breaking as he crushed his face into the pillow some more and cried,
and wished
that he’d done something more to make her stay.
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“Anyone seen Mike?” asked Terry as the group
piled into the bar.
The blank faces looked back at him and no one
seemed to know. Alison had been strangely quiet since the incident with
Chelsea, and when the guys had found out they had
been out of spirits. Chelsea had been a valued member, even, as most
people had called her, the seventh member of Python, and without her
here to
witness the final shooting, it somehow seemed incomplete.
No one except those who had been on the set
had any real knowledge as to what had happened, but they knew she had
walked
out, and had checked with the hotel staff as to whether she had signed
out or
not.
“I can go and check if you want?” asked
Alison, making the most noise she’d made in the entire evening.
Terry shook his head. “I’ll go.” He said, but
Alison touched his hand.
“No Terry. We’ve all seen what your careful
hand can do to someone already today. And you don’t particularly want
Mike to
walk out do you?”
There was silence as Terry sat back down
defeated, sipping his pint and looking warily at the rest of the group,
waiting
for the attack.
Alison made her way up the stairs, stopping
every now and then to catch her breath. When she reached Michael’s door
she
tapped it gently. She tried the handle but it was locked, and she tried
knocking again.
“Michael?” she called. Something was up. He
never stayed away from the group unless something was wrong.
There was no sound from the room and she
began to get nervous and started knocking louder.
The door shunted open
a tiny wedge and Michael’s harrowed face looked out at her from a
darkened
room.
“Michael what’s wrong?” she asked worriedly.
He shrugged. “I think I’m coming down with
something.” He said. Alison looked over his clothes and realised that
he hadn’t
changed from the Galahad outfit yet.
“Have you slept in that?” she asked and he
looked over himself as if for the first time.
“Must have,” he said flatly.
“Aren’t you going to come for a drink?”
Michael shook his head. “I really don’t feel
well. I think I’ll have a shower and go back to bed. Try to rest.”
Alison nodded slowly. She didn’t know what it
was but something was up. There was no particular thing she could point
to,
except that this sudden change in behaviour had happened when Chelsea
had left. After he had
gone after her.
“Michael are you
sure everything’s ok?”
He nodded but she saw that a muscle in his
jaw had tensed.
“It’s just because I thought you might be
upset about Chelsea leaving…” she trailed off and he shook his head
violently.
“Why would I be..”
his voice jerked, “upset about her? It wasn’t as though we were best
friends or
anything..”
Alison knew he was lying. Something had been
going on with them for a while, she could tell. Call it women’s
intuition, but
she had noticed little things, movements, glances, touches, words. She
recalled
the day she’d gone shopping with Chelsea and every time she mentioned
Michael’s
name it was as though a switch had been flicked. One way was complete
detachment to him, which she didn’t reserve for the others, or the
other way
was a small smile, a slight blush and a complete change of subject.
And looking into Michael’s
eyes now she saw that familiar red-ringed crying eyes look, and wanted
instantly to hug him.
“You sure you don’t want company because I
don’t think I could face all of those stairs again..”
she said and he opened the door a little to let her in.
The room was messy, mainly because three
people had been staying there, and Michael excused himself to go and
get washed
and changed as she sat down in a small bed chair next to the window.
When he came back he looked slightly
refreshed, and began changing the sheets on his bed.
“What’s happened Michael? I’m not buying your
story at all.”
He fluffed up a pillow. “Nothing’s happened,
I just don’t feel well.” He hit the pillow and she saw his lip
momentarily
quiver. “It’s a coincidence about Chelsea.” He said and clamped his
mouth shut as
he put a cover on the duvet.
Alison looked up at her husbands’ best
friend, and her friend, and sighed. He wasn’t going to tell her. She
knew he
never would. She wondered how he’d coped with his sisters’ death about
five
years ago, and her mind flickered back to the time. She remembered
Terry
complaining a little, although not as much as if it had been on of the
others.
And then Chelsea had been there. After her arrival Michael
had been much more calmer, Alison seemed to recall.
Five years then. Five years of a relationship
that no one had ever known about. A relationship that had
obviously run deeply for Michael at least, for him to react in such a
way, and
had been conducted without any of the Pythons ever knowing about it.
She looked up at Michael with almost wide
eyes. “Do you love her?” she asked and he looked up at her sharply. His
eyes
told her everything and she slipped from the chair and sat next to him
on the
newly made bed.
“What are you still doing here Michael? Why
didn’t you go after her?”
Michael didn’t know what to say.
Alison prodded on. “Monty Python isn’t the be
all and end all of life.” She said. “Sometimes the group has to wait.”
“But I made a promise.” He croaked finally.
Alison waved her hand. “A
promise to not get involved with her.” She clicked her fingers. “That’s
what I think of that Mike. It’s nothing. The guys would never get rid
of you
because you fell in love with her. They all love you way too much to do
that.”
Michael felt the tears begin to fall onto his
cheeks. “Python is my life Ali, I can’t help it. And I thought she
understood
that. We both knew it was important to keep Python in our lives, but
suddenly
it’s no good for her anymore.”
Alison took his hand. “You’ve been seeing
this girl for five years or more and you still put Python over her? I
don’t
think I would’ve stuck with you for so long.”
He sniffed and looked at her.
“Terry doesn’t put Python over me. If I say
Terry, ‘I want to do this with you this weekend’, he’ll do it. He’ll
put aside
sketches, filming, rehearsals and meetings to be with me, because he
loves me.
All of you think that he works twenty-four hours a day on Python, for
Python,
without regard for me at all, but we reach a happy medium. I know that
Python
is a part of him, but it doesn’t control him.”
Michael nodded slowly.
“But what I can’t understand Mike, is why
you’re still sat here. If you love her so much, you should go after
her. Sod
the others. This is your LIFE Mike! You don’t get a second chance. And
what are
you going to do when you realise it’s too late and she’s gone forever?”
He nodded again and looked around his room
before standing up. He then sat promptly down again.
“I have to stay for filming.” He said and
Alison gave him a stern look. “I’ll wait for things to calm down, and
then,
when filming is done I’ll sort this all out.”
She shook her head. “It’ll be too late
Michael. Believe me.”
“Thanks for your help Ali, but I have to
finish filming. What’s going to happen in the next two weeks that will
have an
effect on what has happened?”
She sighed. “I’ve given you my opinion Mike.
If you loved her as you say you do you’d fight for her.”
Michael choked. “I can’t do everything!” he
said and put his head in his hands. “I wish she were here. She would
tell me
what to do.”
Alison rested her hand on his shoulder. “If
you wanted her enough she would’ve stayed.” And with that she left the
room,
saddened that he still didn’t realise how much he was giving up by
staying with
Python, and troubled by what might happen to her two closest friends in
the
future.
When she reached the bar the spirits had
raised slightly and her frowning figure didn’t cause that much of a
stir. No
one seemed particularly bothered that Michael was “ill”, or that he was
“looking very down”, and no matter how many hints she dropped she could
not get
a single other member to go and see him.
“Terry, I think Michael would like to see you
before you get so drunk it won’t make any sense to you tomorrow.” She
said
softly, but Terry just waved it away.
“I’ll let him sleep it off if he’s feeling
bad. He doesn’t want me poking around does he?”
She shook her head. “I think it’s serious
though Terry. Come on, you’re supposed to be his best friend, why don’t
you
just pop in.”
He looked at her and sighed. “Alison, please
just let me have ten minutes to myself. I don’t want to go and see him,
and I’m
sure he couldn’t give a monkey’s whether I went to see him or not. Now
either
stop nagging or go somewhere else.”
Alison stood up abruptly and looked around
the table, suddenly disgusted with the group. They had driven a wedge
between
two people who loved each other, and didn’t even care. They all looked
up at
her, each with a feeling of unease at her gaze, and as she made her way
up to
her hotel room, they continued drinking, but with a less jovial
attitude than
they had several moments previously.
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