Michael lay in his hospital bed, gazing absent-mindedly out of the
window, beyond the grey car-park to the faint misty outline of the
mountains on the horizon. He was beginning to feel a little better, and
no longer felt as though he was lurching in between blackouts and
intolerable dizziness and nausea. He reached out as far as his IV line
would let him, and grabbed his drink - the old British staple Lucozade,
which was famous for its rejuvenating and rehydrating properties. The
kind of stuff they gave you at prep school when you had the flu in the
middle of mid-terms, he mused.
I bet Shannon never went to prep school, he thought to himself. She's
far too street-wise; unlike himself, who, thanks to the aforementioned
Prep-Public School-Oxbridge cookie-cutter system, had lead a rather
sheltered life until the ballyhoo of Oxford had jolted him out of his
planned career path of post-grad degree, teaching certificate,
doctorate and a tenure in a dusty history department somewhere in the
withered halls of academe. Thank God for Terry, who saved him from that
ivory tower, and thank God for Python, without which he'd be scribbling
away somewhere in a dank basement at the BBC. Terry had saved him, and
Python had given him life.
And Shannon had done both: literally instead of figuratively - and all
before she even knew who he was. Of course he had always had plenty of
girls to choose from; he was popular at Oxford and girls seemed to find
him attractive, but none of them really stood out for him. And once
Python started, there was a steady stream of autograph-hunters and
slightly scary women who thought they owned you, and then the
gold-diggers - although God knows, they were disappointed and vanished
pretty quickly once they found out you didn't have any money. He had
enough to live on, but the BBC was notoriously stingy and Python barely
made enough to get by. As for this film - it was being shot on a
bare-bones budget and even if it somehow became a huge box-office hit -
which Michael seriously doubted - the hard fact remained that when you
have to split your profits six ways, there's not much left to burn a
hole in your pocket.
At the age of 31, Michael had really begun to give up on ever finding a
woman to share his life with. He'd been in love before, but he wasn't
sure
it was real... and she ended up running off with some yahoo with a
country estate in France. He never thought about her now. All he had
ever wanted was someone he could be himself with; a girl who didn't
have any illusions about his so-called fame, someone who could share
his enthusiasm for history, for England, but also for the world, for
travel and adventure. Someone with the same daft sense of humour and
joie de vivre, easy to talk to, sure of her own self; who could give
him the only things he had really ever wanted from life: a wife,
children, a home.
Michael fingered the sunflower that Shannon had left at the side of his
bed. Had he finally found her? It was beyond daring, beyond hope. But
the way his heart pounded when she entered the room, the joy that
surged through his every cell when she smiled at him, and the terror
that struck his mind at the thought of never seeing her again - these
things were symptoms, he knew, of that disease called love. But was it
terminal?
He sniffed the sunflower, inhaled the delicate scent and stroked the
petals gently against his cheek. He wished it was Shannon's hair. When
he had said "Stay with me", he had really meant something else. But it
was insanity to say that - wasn't it? It was bad enough that he'd told
her how he felt - Terry would have his hide once he found out. "Never
tell a woman you love her until she's agreed to a threesome." He was
his best friend, but sometimes he wondered about Terry. But what was it
Eric had said to him recently? "Man, when you know, you just KNOW, and
no amount of analysis will make any difference." Yes, Eric was wise.
Michael lay back on his pillow, spinning the sunflower round and round
in his fingers. He closed his eyes, remembering how he and Shannon had
been together. He had never imagined finding a woman who he could
surrender to like that - who gave as good as she got, and wasn't afraid
to be a sexual being - he'd had too many girls who were prissy or
hung-up or just lay there like a piece of halibut. Shannon was like a
cavewoman - it was exhilarating and intoxicating.
Life without her.... Michael's eyes sprang open. He snatched up his
ever-present diary and began scribbing furiously. He knew it now,
without a
shadow of a doubt: Shannon was The One.
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